Day 11: I’m Better Than YOU! [The Self Love Project]

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“I’m better than you, honey!  Hey, I’m talking to you!”

That’s what I just said to myself.  Every hour minute second I am becoming a better me, I just know I am!  When I glance back to where I was last year, hell… even a few days back!, I am simply in a better state of mind than I was back then.
When comparing myself to others seemed like the normal thing to do, I would often find myself exhausted, frustrated, empty, unfulfilled, agitated, jealous… the list goes on and on and on.  I can only conjure the rationale of me feeling incomplete being caused by the fact that I didn’t fully accept me for me.  I was trying to keep up with the Jones’.  I wanted what they had – you know, that whole coveting thing “thou shalt not covet thy neighbors … anything” [Exodus 20:17].  I know the verse, but I wasn’t living up it.  
I wanted that awesome marriage, that beautiful home, that luxury vehicle, etc. but all for the wrong reasons.  It wasn’t because I just wanted to have them as goals, but I wanted to have them because someone else did.  I know I can’t be the only one who would say things like “If such and such has a boyfriend/girlfriend, then why don’t I have one?” or “If such and such is riding around in a luxury car and he/she doesn’t make but X amount of dollars a year and still afford it, I know I can”. Wait, WHAT?! I was TOO INVOLVED the lives of others, knowingly and unknowingly.
And no, it wasn’t some act of fate that made me take a step backward – no one lost those things due to inappropriate behavior yadda yadda…  I just finally grew up.  I learned that the universe is so abundant that what God has in store for me is just that, for me.  No one can take that away from me!
When I realized that I didn’t have to compare or better yet COMPETE with anyone else, my life unfolded before my eyes.  I no longer coveted my neighbors “anything” because I was thankful with what I had.  I put in work to get what I want.  I think and I become.  I believe and I achieve.  I make things happen in my life!  Everyday I am better than my day before!
I sass myself from time to time, playfully of course, because I know where I’ve been and I know where I am going.  I enjoy who I am and I love me.  Things don’t define who I am, my happiness defines me and you know what? I am extremely happy!
*as I look at myself in the mirror, I say*
“You’ve got something coming for you, sista.  I’m about to give you a run for your money!”
I only compare myself  to who I was yesterday and strive to become better.